Burn me at the stake
Craving something sweet
my desires,
take them away.

Self controlling
but uninhibited,
never finding 
satisfaction.

yearning, twisting, turning,
a bug flies above my head
I let it be for now
hope it doesn’t burrow through my brain.

Spiders dancing on the wall
one evil snatches another
if they are big enough
to slay the beast.

Streams of blue-
green strips
white puffs of smoke-
a far off lonely soul

never sleeping
always wanting
demanding attention
always seeking

in the darkness
secretly weeping
your love
is my weakness

peaceful sorrow
spilled onto an outstretched skin
ink and blood
wrapping bone
in flesh and sin

little affection
unrequited love
submitted love
unwanted and unproven

abandoned
wasted effort
start anew
fallen into 

another trap
chewed my arm off
it grew back
scars left there

brewing a fresh
new poisoned heart
a brand new start
it creeps in

the mind uncertain
unremitting,
smitten with jealousy
coveting her.

A star spaced king eating fish in the moonlight
eats away, eats away
sounding like slight slobbery mouthing
eating gnawing chewing
most unpleasant to the ear
delightful to the taste
gibbering mad incoherent slobbering
dog tax fine cats
elbows down to the knees
a connection severed
dangling by a thread
finally cut free
from the weight of gravity
single lonely strand
cut through sharply
echoing in thy heart
gently stabbing
piercing through
slicing viciously
until it is no more.
A vast ocean of unfulfilled promises
a sea of torment
treading water
endlessly
until a boar appears
or another soul i cling toto keep from sinking
deep into the abysmal recesses of the mind
abhorrent gaffing
tape the screams
of ghastly hollows
indulge me with your story
I must learn to love you
in the way you most need it
so I can get my fix
of love returned.

Sorry everything I write about is so depressing.
I feel this pressure on me pressing on my chest and
I can’t ever rest, not even in peace, I feel my soul’s possessed,
Yes I’m blessed but mentally my psyche’s put to the test.
Keep me guessing when’s the next 
time death is creeping on my mind
I can’t make the feeling or the voices go away, 
I can’t tell if I am gonna live another day.
I’m stuck in the abyss
and It all started with a kiss.
It all started when you looked at me
for longer than a second
and I knew that you were thinking
you could spin this broken record
’til the needle wore the tracks out
that I’m racing on.
Shoulda known I couldn’t handle the rejection.
Fuck it guess I’ll smoke this cess and
maybe next time I’ll finally learn my lesson
instead of stressing over something that was never meant to be.
Is it me?
Is it fate?
Am I controlling my own destiny?
I’m filled with hate, love, lust, pain, and jealousy.

What’s it worth?
Is life a blessing or a curse?
When they put me in the dirt
is it bliss or will it hurt?
For now I’ll just keep living with the shirt
on my back
as I’m tryna find my path
its a balancing act
and I’m on a tightrope a million miles in the sky
wondering do I wanna die?
Do I wanna die?